im sorry, truly sorry, for everything. for every mistake ive made, for every careless word or action that hurt you, and for every time i failed to be the person you needed me to be. i know ive said “sorry” before, and maybe it doesn’t mean much anymore, but i want you to understand that this isn’t just an apology out of guilt, it’s a reflection of how much ive realized my faults and how deeply i regret them

i know you probably won’t read far into this, and even if you do, i don’t expect you to feel the same way i do. i just need to say what’s been sitting heavily on my heart. i know i can’t have you back, and maybe i don’t deserve to. but what i truly wish for is your forgiveness

i just need to put these words out there. ive made mistakes, not just once, but over and over again, and each one feels heavier now that I understand what ive lost. i can’t take them back, but i can acknowledge them, and i can take responsibility for the pain i caused

there were so many moments when you needed me, and i wasn’t there. times when i left you out of impulse, times when you waited for hours outside just to wait for me, and i kept you waiting without realizing how much that hurt.

the more i think about everything, the more i understand why its so easy for you to move on. why it was easier for you to let go than to keep holding on to someone who couldn’t be there consistently. i used to think it was unfair, but now i realize, you chose to stop waiting for someone who kept treating you badly. and as much as it hurts to admit, i respect that. you deserved better :c

if this really is the end, if this is the last time we’ll ever talk, the final time our paths cross in this way, then i want my last words to be ones of peace, not desperation. im not asking you to come back, and i won’t beg you like i did before. i just want you to forgive me

i don’t know what ill do now. there’s an emptiness that follows me, and sometimes it feels unbearable. but i know this is part of the price i pay for taking love for granted. i hope one day ill learn to forgive myself the way i hope you can forgive me. i want to become someone better, someone who won’t repeat these mistakes

ill always carry the memories of us, taught me what love feels like, and also what it feels like to lose it. you showed me what kindness, and real care look like, and ill never forget that. even though we’ve gone our separate ways, a part of me will always be grateful that i got to know you, even if only for a while

if you ever think of me, i hope it’s not with anger or regret, but maybe with a small smile, knowing that even though i messed up, i did love you in the best way i knew how at the time. thank you for being part of my life

and i hope that somewhere in your heart, you can find forgiveness for me, even if i never get to hear it :cc